Jade's Transgender Journey

 Where Did I Find Support?      When I was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria by my neuropsychologist, being transgender was confirmed.  Now what do I do?  What is next?  What do I wear?  What do I tell my friends and family?  These were just some of the questions that I had. I was anxious, and I was scared of the unknown in what was next, what to expect.  Maybe if I could find others like me, I could get some advice, some support?  Considering that I never met another transgender person in my life, where could I find others to talk to?  I was relieved that I was finally diagnosed, but I was also lost.  Yes, I had a professional therapist, who I saw every couple weeks for an hour, but she could only do so much.  So, I looked for more support; and considering the transgender community is so small, finding a local support group was very difficult. I googled transgender chat groups, but most were focused on sex chat, which ...

     With a lot of new positive developments and adjustments, it has been a little while since my last Blog.  For me, my life is currently feeling surreal. After over 50 years, I am now finally able to live as my authentic self.  It has almost been a year since I disclosed to the world of who I really am, and what a journey it has been.  Being able to live as who I am is something I have been missing.  Since the beginning of my transitioning, I have discovered a level of peace and happiness that I never knew was possible. Last year, I was scared to death, now I am Happy.  Even though my name was legally changed almost 3 months ago, the reality is finally setting in.  This morning I woke up with no anxiety, no depression, with little worries, a combination that I have not felt in many years.  Actually, I do not believe I have ever felt this level of peace and happiness.       So, what is next?  It is time to live ...

  ASSUME NOTHING Since my transitioning, I have learned many things, some good, some not so much.  Perhaps, the biggest challenge has been the Assumptions made by so many.  Some Assume I "want" to be a woman,  some Assume my transitioning is about sex, some Assume that my sexual orientation has changed, and some Assume I am a different person.  What I have recently discovered is what I believe is the most important, I to have been Assuming.  I have Assumed "everyone" would hate me for my transitioning.  I have Assumed my community would not accept me, and so much more.  Even though some may not accept me, most Assumptions are Not True.  When we Assume, we put up walls, which effects both sides.  So what is better, Live in Fear, or Live in Peace?  I chose Peace. Hugs, Jade

 Since I have been living as a transgender person, there is one definite myth by many about transgender people which is the biggest by far. For those who are not educated on the topic of transgender, oftentimes resulting in them being transphobic, usually believe transgender transitioning is all about sex.  However, this is so far from the truth; and it amazes me on how some people can take someone's health and personal peace issues and pervert them to justify their phobias and mistreatment of others.  Perhaps, it is because that is human nature for things that are different, to be afraid and to act out.  In fact, I have had multiple ex-girlfriends state that I could not be transgender because I am not gay.  Well, they are partially correct, I am not gay; but why should that matter?  Also, they are exes for a reason, they never knew me for who I really am.  Another thing many people want to know is, "how do you and your wife have sex?  What??...

Did you know that the original Protocol to treat Gender Dysphoria is over 41 years old?  In other words, transgender and gender dysphoria is not a new development, nor is it a fad. Maybe if this information was available to me sooner, I could have lived a happier and healthier life sooner.   Unfortunately, this information was not revealed to me until last year when I was 48 years of age.  One can only wonder, "How many suicides, murders, assaults and discrimination could have been prevented if this information and treatment has not been swept under the rug for over 4 decades?"  This is why I decided to write this blog, and this is why so many are lobbying for more rights for those of us who are born different as transgender persons.  If I transitioned earlier, would my life have been different?  I am sure it would have been, including I may not have had my children, which is a Blessing to me.  However, who knows, there could have been options, as...

HRT, not a topic that I have shared much here, perhaps it has been because I did not know how to.  Before I get into sharing my HRT details, I want to take the time to thank all of you for your interest in my journey.  I never expected so many to be interested, Thank you.  Before I share how HRT is positively effecting me, I believe I am obligated to share what it is, and why transgender persons oftentimes need it.  HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) is a medical treatment for those who need medical intervention for having a hormonal imbalance, some examples includes male ED (erectile disfunction), menopausal women, and transgender persons.   Why is HRT so important for transgender persons?  For us transgender persons, we realize that each of us our journey and needs are different, and so is our journey in transitioning.  However, for many of us, HRT is necessary to not only assist in our physical appearance and characteristics, but most importantl...

  The above text was from a meme that a Facebook friend shared.  I do not believe this person is a bad person, just mislead and socially programmed in transphobia.   The following is my answer.  My hope and prayer is that by teaching awareness will help teach awareness, and prevent further discrimination and violance.  My Response:  "What about women who are born with those famous chromosomes, but are infertile from a birth abnormality, are they still female? Another example: If a person was born with a facial abnormality, would it be okay if that person had facial surgery for the sake of the person's mental health and development? If so, why is it not okay for transgender persons to do the same? Transgender (gender dysphoria) is not a new development, but it is fairly new in teaching public awareness. Here's some statistics: 1 out of 2000 persons in the United States are born with both sexes...who are they? 1/2 of 1% of all persons in the United State...

  My journey as Jade has been so interesting. I "never" thought I would receive the support that I have. Honestly, I expected to be hated by most with few friends and needing to live on a deserted island. Not only have I discovered that many people care and love me for me, some have reached out to me. Some are going through a similar journey, while some can relate or want to understand more. Is it possible? We all are born different, some of us require medical intervention at birth, while some of us it is needed as we get older. Regardless our diversity, we all are created different, but yet, still made in our God's Image. I believe embracing these differences shows God's Glory, and ultimately why He sent His one and only Earthly born Son. It's our differences that makes us special, which is why He created us as such. I walk in faith as a Child of God. :) John 3:16-19, " For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever belie...

      Even though I know transitioning for me is saving my life, and will eventually be worth it, it is not easy by no stretch of the imagination. I could go into how learning so much and adapting to the hormones are difficult, but that is not what I am referring to today.  I remember when I shared how scared I was to go out in public as my authentic me to one of my loved ones, him and my fiancé said they would go with me to keep me safe.  Even though I never doubted their sincerity, the reality is, this is a journey I need to walk myself.  For example: On a daily basis, I rarely go out in public in fear of discrimination; and when I do, my anxiety is through the roof, and I just want to get back home.  The thing is, I have been out many times, and nothing has happened.  I realize that I am missing out on so much, but the transitional journey is a lot to process on all fronts.  Throughout these many months, I have talked to others in the same...

 If you only could live as the real you, not for other people. If you only could look in the mirror, and like what you see? If you only could live with less anxiety, with more happiness? If you only could love who you are as a person, instead of looking down on yourself? If you only could know who really loves you for who you are, instead of their ideas of you? If you only could know who your real friends are, instead of possible hidden agendas? These use to be the questions I would ask myself, If only... Now, I live as my authentic self Now, I look in the mirror and smile at who I see Now, as I transition, my anxiety is lowering, and I am discovering personal happiness. Now, I know who really loves me. Now, I know who my real friends and family are. If you only could do the same, would you? Hugs,  Jayde

  PERHAPS THE BEST WAY TO UNDERSTAND GENDERY DYPHORIA: When a human fetus is conceived, all fetus's are neither male or female, but more female; and at about 7 weeks, gender starts to develop. In order for a healthy and "normal" person to develop gender wise, physical, neurological, and psychological path ways need to match. When one or two of these do not match, gender dysphoria can develop. When a person's emotional / psychological development does not match physical gender, the anxiety and depression can be so bad that physical transitioning becomes necessary. Like myself, some people will try to live based off of physical gender birth to please others. Unfortunately, this can lead to serious health problems, which is exactly what happened to me.... I was able to "fake it" for 48 years, while carrying so much pain, depression, and anxiety to last a life time... maybe this will help a little more for others to be more educated on Gender Dysphoria. - H...

 Well, it has been two months since I disclosed to the world about my gender dysphoria and that I will be transitioning. Overall, I have been pleasantly surprised on the support I have received by so many. Unfortunately, there have been a few who just do not know how to process it, which is understandable. However, the past few weeks the challenge has not been about others processing my transition, but with myself. There is so much more to transitioning than just putting on clothes, make-up, and changing ones name. For me, the big challenge is the emotional development part of it all. All my life I buried the super sensitive side of me, and I tried to be more aggressive for my success; but it was not the real me. Now, since I opened my heart with my authentic self, the deep emotions, feelings, and behaviors started to re-develop. I am finally allowing myself to feel and to approach things by what comes natural. This is the challenging process, really learning how to be me. Be...

Jade – 30 Days Public      Well, after 30 days of disclosing publicly that I have been diagnosed with gender dysphoria and that I will be transitioning from male to female, it has been an emotional roller coaster ride to say the least. At first, I honestly did not know what to expect, maybe on the good side have a few supporters. I expected to be another national statistic by being majorly hated and discriminated by most. However, the opposite happened, and the positive support has been overwhelming. From day one of disclosing to our church family, to friends and family, to even our new community, I prepared for the worse. Since then, I have discovered that Happy Tears do exist, which is something I was not allowed to appreciate throughout my young 49 previous years. I cannot express in words on how much I appreciate the levels of humanity that has been given to me recently. Painfully, this does not apply to everyone. Unfortunately, not all welcomed my diagnoses. ...

 The following is the link to the video disclosure I shared to the church and the world: Just Imagine

  JUST IMAGINE: Just imagine being diagnosed with a condition that undoes everything physical that you have tried to be as a person. Just imagine needing to tell friends and family that you are not the person who they have known. Just imagine the fear of the unknown, but knowing it is necessary in order to live a physical, mental, and spiritual healthy life. Just imagine not knowing how many people you will lose in your life as you know some will not understand that your condition is real, not a choice, and a medically diagnosed one. Just imagine knowing that some church members will turn against you because of their lack of understanding. Just imagine becoming physically a different person by not only wearing different clothes and hair style, but also needing a different name. Just imagine loving everyone else, but wonder if everyone else will still love you. Just imagine discovering you are that different person. These are just some of the challenges and fears that exist with a p...

  JADE'S JOURNEY - INTRO - Imagine growing up and living your life needing to be someone you are not. Imagine living in fear of letting others down and not being good enough for those you love. Imagine feeling like you are constantly living undercover all the time. Imagine taking high risk dangerous jobs and living risky personal lifestyles to prove you are cool and tough enough. Imagine the idea of being physically hurt or killed is less scary than sharing the truth. Imagine living this fake life so deep and so long that you forget who you are. Imagine the stress and anxieties that build up in time. Imagine how this would affect your health, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I am Jade, I am transgender, and this is my story of transitioning into a transgender female.