Jade - 30 Days Public - Blog #6

Jade – 30 Days Public

     Well, after 30 days of disclosing publicly that I have been diagnosed with gender dysphoria and that I will be transitioning from male to female, it has been an emotional roller coaster ride to say the least. At first, I honestly did not know what to expect, maybe on the good side have a few supporters. I expected to be another national statistic by being majorly hated and discriminated by most. However, the opposite happened, and the positive support has been overwhelming. From day one of disclosing to our church family, to friends and family, to even our new community, I prepared for the worse. Since then, I have discovered that Happy Tears do exist, which is something I was not allowed to appreciate throughout my young 49 previous years. I cannot express in words on how much I appreciate the levels of humanity that has been given to me recently. Painfully, this does not apply to everyone. Unfortunately, not all welcomed my diagnoses. I have had a few family members and fellow believers publicly and privately share their disapproval. As this occurred, I cannot help but wonder if they have ever read the Gospels and how can they feel good about themselves. When cynicism is the first step in communication, love and compassion is the last. Yes, the pain of the handful of negative people is hurtful, but not as I expected. I have found myself losing sleep in pain, but not for me. The pain I have been caring is for those caring such a cynical heart and for the others who are like me they have been wrongfully persecuting. The reality is, 40% of transgender persons will be physically assaulted and 30% will attempt suicide. In fact, this year in 2020 the transgender community recognized in memory for 30 transgender persons killed or missing here in the United States. I also have joined multiple online support groups, locally, national, and internationally, with the same census…. “We are afraid to live”, oftentimes being afraid of some of the church body. As a Called Christian Minister, this pains me more than my own pain. How can so many people believe and teach that bigotry and hate is okay in the Christian Church? I recently had an atheist tell me, “We just need to love each other”. WOW, and he does not even believe in the Gospels, but gets the greatest commandment!

     Then some will say, you were born a certain way, you should not change that? Does this analogy apply to those with other birth abnormalities, such as cleft lip, heart condition, or other issues, or does it only apply to what we want to except or like? Why do some need to pervert this diagnoses? I am not a she-male or a tranny, I am transgender because of gender dysphoria. My goal is to live like anyone else under Life, Liberty, and Pursue of Happiness for Justice for All. Some Transgender persons leave the Christian faith to join other faiths. Some get into drug and alcohol abuse, crime, and even get involved into prostitution. How much of this negative “cause and effect” can been prevented? So, even though I am Blessed with positive support 10 to 1, I am heart broken for those afraid of living. People are dying and afraid of leaving their homes throughout our world because they are uniquely different. As I continue to adapt and overcome the challenges of transitioning, my prayer is that others like me will be equally Blessed in having the support I have.

Big Hugs to All of you who have a Heart of Integrity. I love you All

- Jade