Jade's Transgender Journey

 The following is the link to the video disclosure I shared to the church and the world: Just Imagine

  WOW, WHAT A DAY: First, I got cleared for some volunteer service in my community; and then I had a couple unexpected conversations. The first one was with a fellow community minister / civil servant, and boy did we get deep into life challenges and how our Lord applies to them all. Ultimately, I ended up disclosing my dysphoria, and he openly accepted me for who I am. Then out of no where, one of my siblings contacted me, and we talked on the phone for a little while. He told me what was going in his life, and I disclosed what was going on in mine.... His response, "Why were you scared to tell me? I still love you. " OMG, I am feeling so overwhelmed in personal liberation and happiness, finally able to be who I am. All those personal fears are going away, and I am feeling on top of the world. How far my dysphoria is going to take me is not sure; but after 49 years, I have discovered peace and happiness on levels I never thought would was possible. I feel so Blessed ...

  DISCLOSING & DISCOVERING ME Now, that I know who I am as a person, it has been a time to disclose my true self to the people in my life. By doing so, I have discovered so many things about myself. For instance, sometimes I have heard, “God made you a certain way, it is wrong for you to change that”. While looking at that at face value, one can see how that may make sense. Then I look back as far as I can remember and see how I was and how I felt years ago, before my social conditioning. When I was young, before the age of gender division starts, I loved life. Then throughout the years, I was told how I had to dress, how I had to walk, how I had to sit, how I had to talk, how I had to wear my hair, how I had to shake hands, what type of careers where acceptable, how to fight alpha’s to earn respect, and what hobbies were acceptable. I was taught how I had to be, to be a “man”. For every day, I consciously focused on perfecting each one of those tasks. Like an actor, I ...

  JUST IMAGINE: Just imagine being diagnosed with a condition that undoes everything physical that you have tried to be as a person. Just imagine needing to tell friends and family that you are not the person who they have known. Just imagine the fear of the unknown, but knowing it is necessary in order to live a physical, mental, and spiritual healthy life. Just imagine not knowing how many people you will lose in your life as you know some will not understand that your condition is real, not a choice, and a medically diagnosed one. Just imagine knowing that some church members will turn against you because of their lack of understanding. Just imagine becoming physically a different person by not only wearing different clothes and hair style, but also needing a different name. Just imagine loving everyone else, but wonder if everyone else will still love you. Just imagine discovering you are that different person. These are just some of the challenges and fears that exist with a p...

  JADE'S JOURNEY - INTRO - Imagine growing up and living your life needing to be someone you are not. Imagine living in fear of letting others down and not being good enough for those you love. Imagine feeling like you are constantly living undercover all the time. Imagine taking high risk dangerous jobs and living risky personal lifestyles to prove you are cool and tough enough. Imagine the idea of being physically hurt or killed is less scary than sharing the truth. Imagine living this fake life so deep and so long that you forget who you are. Imagine the stress and anxieties that build up in time. Imagine how this would affect your health, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I am Jade, I am transgender, and this is my story of transitioning into a transgender female.