Almost there, now what? - Post #44

 Almost there, now what?

     It seems like yesterday, but it has almost been 2 years since I started this blog.  When I started, I had no idea on what to expect.  Also, the anxiety and even fears were stronger than I ever felt.  Now, here I am, Happily Married, and legally living as me.  Even though I am still dealing with trying to recover from my seizure disorder, I feel I am almost there.  I am still GRS (gender re-assignment surgery) pre-op, but that is the next step and maybe final step in my transitioning.  With being on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy)for over 20 months, I have felt more like me than ever in my life.

So, now that I am starting to see final stages of my transitioning journey, what is next?

     Throughout the past couple years, I have learned a lot about myself and about others. I have been pleasantly surprised on the level of support I have received, while a few has not been so empathetic.  More importantly, I have been discovering who I really am inside.  For about 49 years, I felt like I was living as a person the world expected me to be.  This expectation included how I thought, and even how I walked.  Fortunately, little by little I have been able to peel back the onion layers of my real personality.  Unfortunately, when one looks deep inside, sometimes we discover or remember things that can be difficult.  For this reason, I believe this is what is next for me, discovering peace with my past, within myself, and maybe with a few people.  Like the rest of my journey, this is not going to be something I will force upon myself, but I do believe it is what is next.   I truly believe the level of happiness and peace that I have received so far, has been a true Blessing.  So, finally now, I believe I am ready to face some other personal challenges.  Like all people, transgender people have "normal" challenges too.  So, in time, we will see what is next in the next chapter.

Until next time, Thank you to all of you who have been so supportive in my journey.

Hugs,
Jade

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