Lord, I am Sorry... - Blog #37


Lord, I am Sorry...

Sometimes we live our lives and not appreciate what we have and who we are as a person.  Sometimes, we need to take a deep look inside to discover who we have not been.  With this in mind, these words have fallen on my heart over the past few years:

Lord, I am sorry for seeing the ugly person in the mirror, but not seeing the Beauty you made me inside.

Lord, I am sorry for once being transphobic, while only being afraid to discover my authentic self. 

Lord, I am sorry for once being homophobic because I did not understand Biblical historical context, which prevented me in knowing so many wonderful people that you created.

Lord, I am sorry that I allowed all the fears of being myself to cause me so much anxiety and depression, which has effected so many.

Lord, I am sorry that I did not know how to talk and tell others who I am, that special person you created.

Lord, I am sorry that I do not know how to educate those who hate those who you created different.

Lord, I am sorry for the times that I lost my faith in you, while you still had faith in me.

Lord, I am sorry for not loving myself as you have intended

Lord, I am sorry that I have not loved those who have not loved me.

Lord, I am sorry, but now I am ready to surrender and not be afraid to shine because of your Mercy and Glory.

Lord, I love you and promise to love myself and the soul you gave me.

Amen


I hope and pray that maybe these words can help inspire someone else to have the courage to be who they were created to be; and just maybe, their light will shine for others to appreciate.

Hugs,

Jade

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