Liberated by a New Identity - Blog #21

 

7/21/21
Before my name and gender marker hearing

     Yesterday was a day that I am going to remember for the rest of my life, the day I was given my own identity.  All my life until now I have carried the identity as a Junior and male.  Even though I believe it can be honorable in being named after someone, but it can also be difficult for the person.  For me, I struggled with my name for a few reasons including struggling with self identity, gender dysphoria; and every time I signed my name, I was reminded of the one person who has mistreated me most of my life.  Imagine living all your life with that pain and anxiety.  So, yesterday when I had to testify about some of the events in my life, the emotions were overwhelming. What was amazing was, I was expecting two hearings; but because of my extenuating circumstances the judge offered to do it all right there and then. My feelings of emotions took over and I could not hold back the tears.  The moment I waited for, for so long was happening, and I was being relieved of so much weight I carried for so long.  Even now, it all feels so surreal, and I cannot stop smiling. I realize that some people may not understand what I am going through, but I can honestly say that I have never been happier about who I am as a person as I am now.  I now have a level of peace in my heart that I have never experienced.  Even though my legal name is a little different than what I use here and on social media, I am now living as my authentic me.

I am now legally Jade, female

Regardless of ones life and challenges, I hope and pray for everyone to be able to have the same happiness and peace within themselves. Maybe by me sharing my story, maybe it will help one person in doing the same.

- Jade

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