Jade's Transgender Journey

  WOW, WHAT A DAY: First, I got cleared for some volunteer service in my community; and then I had a couple unexpected conversations. The first one was with a fellow community minister / civil servant, and boy did we get deep into life challenges and how our Lord applies to them all. Ultimately, I ended up disclosing my dysphoria, and he openly accepted me for who I am. Then out of no where, one of my siblings contacted me, and we talked on the phone for a little while. He told me what was going in his life, and I disclosed what was going on in mine.... His response, "Why were you scared to tell me? I still love you. " OMG, I am feeling so overwhelmed in personal liberation and happiness, finally able to be who I am. All those personal fears are going away, and I am feeling on top of the world. How far my dysphoria is going to take me is not sure; but after 49 years, I have discovered peace and happiness on levels I never thought would was possible. I feel so Blessed ...

  DISCLOSING & DISCOVERING ME Now, that I know who I am as a person, it has been a time to disclose my true self to the people in my life. By doing so, I have discovered so many things about myself. For instance, sometimes I have heard, “God made you a certain way, it is wrong for you to change that”. While looking at that at face value, one can see how that may make sense. Then I look back as far as I can remember and see how I was and how I felt years ago, before my social conditioning. When I was young, before the age of gender division starts, I loved life. Then throughout the years, I was told how I had to dress, how I had to walk, how I had to sit, how I had to talk, how I had to wear my hair, how I had to shake hands, what type of careers where acceptable, how to fight alpha’s to earn respect, and what hobbies were acceptable. I was taught how I had to be, to be a “man”. For every day, I consciously focused on perfecting each one of those tasks. Like an actor, I ...